习惯麻木

生活在岛国，大家都习惯了炎热的天气，滂沱的大雨，还有拥挤的MRT. 习惯，久了，就渐渐变成麻木，譬如说握着地铁的扶手听着冷漠的女声说“doors are closing”，然后是关门的警示声，再然后是大家尽量不碰及另一人的身体摇摇晃晃跟随列车前进。

习惯到一定的境界，你不会再去思考这句话的意思，同时也自然反射地把这句话放到与之类似的语境下，在不会去检讨它的使用是否合适。就如上星期爸爸将我的行李运到新宿舍，乘搭电梯上楼的时候，一把平静无澜的女声说了“doors are closing”，我也只是很习惯的等着，直到我爸爸说，“英语这么差的啊？只有一道门，可以说doors咩？”

当下我根本不知道问题出在哪里，后来才发现复数形式的使用是错误的，而这种脑筋转不过来的 情况就是“习惯”变成“麻木”的一种体现。

当下我想到了Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist (Alan Clarke 译本）里头说过的一段话:

"When someone sees the same people everyday, as had happened with him (the boy) in the seminary, they wind up becoming a part of that person's life. And then they want the person to change, if someone isn't what others want them to be, the others become angry. Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should live their lives, but none about his or her own."

深深认同，对己，为习惯性麻木，对他人，则是习惯性愤怒。

人总是宽以待己，严以待人。

又矛盾纠结了，唉！